Woke up this morning around seven and couldn't breathe. I would cough and cough and then my lungs felt like the walls stuck together and I couldn't get the air back in and when I did it made this horrible sound, and I would cough because of the way the air was coming in more and more, until I would be struggling so hard I started gagging and retching, but I hadn't eaten in more than ten hours, and there was nothing to throw up except for brownish ooze.
I finally got my breath, and went downstairs and made chamomile tea with ginger to help my stomach chill out, and fell back asleep.

Woke up at ten, same thing happened all over again. So, i went into the shower and sat in there breathing steam until my dad came up to see why I was wasting water. He hooked up the humidifier in my room. Mom's going to check up in random times of the day to make sure I'm still alive, hahaha!

I'm just sort of... Shaken. I actually couldn't breathe, I thought I was going to die, I got dizzy and my eyes are hurting and my body is trembling. When I was coughing, I started praying because I was so scared- not of death, but just of the pain. I didn't want to turn blue and have my parents have to come up and discover me with a swollen face and my eyes bugged out already in rigamortis curled up on the bathroom floor surrounded by puke and saliva.
I was scared for my body, I guess.

I just want this to end. Mom's taking me to the doctor later, she thinks I developed athsma from my cough. I thought that three weeks ago, but whatever. At least they're listening to me now, which is better than never. I'm really sick of waking up with my body panicking. I know what whatever is meant to happen will happen, but I'd really rather give this body a good life before I'm meant to go, you know?

Anyway, back to the doctor again.

I'm also terrified for Dominic, because he just got a cough. I thought I wasn't contagious, now I'm worried that he's got what I have.
I mean, two months later, you're not contagious, right? I took azithramax a month and three weeks ago. I shouldn't be contagious at all, and yet brunette blue eyes people keep getting my cough. Rachel, and then Dominic- both brunette with blue eyes. My mom got something like it, but not exactly, and she's brunette with brown eyes. I'm wondering if there is a trend.

I joked with him last night that I have some new plague that's going to be a pandemic all across the US, and they won't realize it until suddenly I drop dead -then everyone will start to panic. Hahaha! That would be something.

I hope everyone's doing fine, I'd call and hang out but I'm not feeling up to hanging out, hahaha. Love to everyone!! ^______^








P.S. Dominic = <3 X 100,000,000,000,000,000,000

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